Pregnancy is a time of changes, growth, and closeness. But things are very
different for woman who for whatever reason are experiencing their pregnancy
without their partner. Many things that most pregnant women take for granted are
things that I would do anything to have. The whole experience leaves you feeling
alone and vulnerable where you are suppose to feel loved and valued. The first
silly thing I can think of is cravings. When I have a craving for something I
have to get it myself. That gets a little hard when you have another child who
you can't wake up to run to the store. A not so silly thing- having someone to
feel the baby kick. I am 7 months pregnant and the only who has felt my baby
kick is my son. This has left me really sad and down. Another thing is OB
appointments. I go to every single OB appointment alone, every blood work alone
(due to complications I have to go every week), and everything else alone. Today
I had to get a painful shot and had to figure out how to drive home even though
my arm was in a lot of pain. These are the things I have already experienced but
the thing left to come are hard to face also. I have no clue how I am going to
get to the hospital when I go into labor. I don't really have anyone who lives
close enough. Also who is going to stay with me at the hospitable? And then the
biggest fear of all, coming home. I am going to have a newborn to take care of
and also a son who will just be starting kindergarten. I also have a house to
maintain and a job to find. I really don't have anyone to lean on. Relations
with my family is always volatile and my friends have families and
responsibilities they have to maintain. I am not whining, I am more just outline
how it is so different to be going through this alone. I am only one woman but
soon I am going to learn how to be Super Woman or else I will fail. The future
is intimidating but yet I wouldn't change having my two babies. You can never
know if you succeeded in life if there is no chance of failure.
different for woman who for whatever reason are experiencing their pregnancy
without their partner. Many things that most pregnant women take for granted are
things that I would do anything to have. The whole experience leaves you feeling
alone and vulnerable where you are suppose to feel loved and valued. The first
silly thing I can think of is cravings. When I have a craving for something I
have to get it myself. That gets a little hard when you have another child who
you can't wake up to run to the store. A not so silly thing- having someone to
feel the baby kick. I am 7 months pregnant and the only who has felt my baby
kick is my son. This has left me really sad and down. Another thing is OB
appointments. I go to every single OB appointment alone, every blood work alone
(due to complications I have to go every week), and everything else alone. Today
I had to get a painful shot and had to figure out how to drive home even though
my arm was in a lot of pain. These are the things I have already experienced but
the thing left to come are hard to face also. I have no clue how I am going to
get to the hospital when I go into labor. I don't really have anyone who lives
close enough. Also who is going to stay with me at the hospitable? And then the
biggest fear of all, coming home. I am going to have a newborn to take care of
and also a son who will just be starting kindergarten. I also have a house to
maintain and a job to find. I really don't have anyone to lean on. Relations
with my family is always volatile and my friends have families and
responsibilities they have to maintain. I am not whining, I am more just outline
how it is so different to be going through this alone. I am only one woman but
soon I am going to learn how to be Super Woman or else I will fail. The future
is intimidating but yet I wouldn't change having my two babies. You can never
know if you succeeded in life if there is no chance of failure.